Journey to the Past

We don't want to live our life na maraming what-ifs. We always want closure in every chapter of our life.  Ikaw ba gagawin mo lahat para lang matahimik ka ? O you would just let it go and go on with your life?  How can you face the future if the past is holding you back? Recently I did something na di ko akalain na magagawa ko, though di ko naman ginawa ito mag-isa siyempre with the help of my lokaret na friend.  Lately lagi ko kasi napapanaginipan yun ex ko, and it's different from my past dreams, it made me restless and uneasy, di ko alam bakit ko siya napapanaginipan. One crazy Tuesday morning, I was telling this to my lokaret friend, she asked me if want to recoonect with him, sabi ko oo naman pero paano? Wala na akong balita about him, and yun landline niya nakalimutan ko na din.  She tried finding info thru internet.  My friend suggested na we try calling his alma mater ask for info.  I asked her a favor if she could do it for me, and siyempre being a lokaret and good friend she called the school, hoping we could get his contact number, alam ko naman na suntok sa buwan, because they wont give information kasi confidential.  The girl from the school told my friend to email a formal request.  So that night I sent the email, naisip ko what else is to lose and probably they wont give importance to my email, since it's a personal request and ayaw ko din umasa. Unexpectedly after 2 days.  I received an email from the school!!!! Informing me that she called him unfortunately he is not around, nag leave na lang daw ng message for him to return call.  I was speechless, did she really call him!!??!! Di ko kasi inexpect that she would exert effort.  I am so grateful to her. Kinakabahan ako ng todo todo, nanlalamig ang mga kamay ko, di ko alam kasi if tama ba o mali?  It's been a long time since last kami nag usap and nagkita.  Di  ko alam kung ano na nangyari sa kanya, maraming bagay ang pumasok sa isip ko, if married na ba siya, may mga anak na ba siya? O single pa ba siya? Natanggap ba niya yun message? Gusto ba niya ako kausapin? I have done all i can possibly do.  No regrets in the future.  I pray to  GOD, Thy will be done. If I dont get any feedback then maybe its for the best.  I may keep wondering for the rest of my life, but everything happens for a reason. Do you have interesting stories to tell? Share them here!